A bit scary...

Well not so much "scary" as in the Monsters and Murderers sense of the word, but more the "OMFG" sense of it...

Me & Matt at the gig in Brighton (14/04/11)

I was sitting on the sofa, all happy minding my own business and it hit me! I have been with my wonderful fiance for 2 and a half years today.  Yep, today, Sunday 17th April 2011, is our "half' anniversary.  I can't believe it, the time has flown but, at the same time, it seems longer...does that even make sense?? 

That wasn't so much the thought that made me "OMFG", but more the thought that at this precise time (17:43) in 3 months time I will have been married for 28 hours!!  The thing that scared me is that I happened to look at the clock at 13:00 initially and I realized that if it were 3 months time I'd be thinking "this time yesterday I was walking down the aisle!" 

I can't wait to marry Matt.  My other half (better half? hm...). My missing puzzle piece.  My soulmate.  

Goodness only knows what I'm going to be like nearer the time, I'm getting butterflies in my stomach just writing this....

T.T.F.N. x

Wait and See....

Hello one and all, so we made it to Brighton and back in one piece.  It was a truly wonderful evening and, once again, Jaret Reddick and Erik Chandler showed just how incredibly talented they are.  Together with Ryan Hamilton and Linus of Hollywood they certainly made it a show to remember.  

L-R: Jaret Reddick, Me, Erik Chandler

There was  of course the added bonus that we got to meet the guys before the show. We had previously met them when we went to Norwich last October.  

We had VIP tickets but didn't realize that we had to get to the venue an hour before everyone else, so we ended up missing out.  We got to meet them though...admittedly we had to wait around for almost 4 hours afterward, but it was worth it for the hugs.  

L-R: Jaret Reddick, Matt, Erik Chandler

 I am a self-confessed Celebrity Whore.  Some say stalker, but I prefer Celebrity Whore. Lol. 

I have been tweeting Erik and Jaret for some time and, on the way to the Norwich gig I noticed I had a tweet from Erik that he had sent the day before saying "see you tomorrow" - I nearly went through the roof of the car - Matt thought I was "special" and I don't mean in a nice way!!  When I saw Erik outside of the venue in Norwich I told him I was Jubbly_1 from Twitter and in his amazing Texan accent he embraced me with an "Oh my God, hi!!"  This time round I got a tweet from Jaret saying "thank you for the 2 hugs".  Things like that make me unbelievably smiley, again earning me the "special" title from Matt. 

It would be fair to say we had some quality time off.  

The drive to and from Brighton was actually a lot easier than I thought it would have been and, even after a long day on Thursday, I felt surprisingly refreshed on Friday.  

Eventually we got ourselves outta bed and went over to Matt's mum's to collect Brandon.  

When we had walked in on Thursday she had looked at the apparently "viral" rash that Brandon had and the first thing she asked was if it was German Measles?!  I assured her that the Doctor had told me that it was viral and, therefore, nothing to worry about.  She kept him dosed up on Calpol and Ibuprofen and he seemed to be over the worst.  Yet last night (Friday), Matt went up to check that he was sufficiently covered and discovered that he was absolutely wringing wet with sweat.  He was soaked, as were his pajamas, bedsheets, pillow, etc.  He also felt very cold and clammy to touch.  

To cut the story relatively short, I went with "Mother's Instinct" and phoned the out of hours Doctors.  We ended up with a 23:20 appointment and it turns out that Brandon actually has Conjunctivitis, Tonsillitis and German Measles!  He is now on antibiotic for the Tonsillitis, the German Measles just has to run it's course.  

It is now a case of "wait and see" to see whether I, Matt's mum or Matt's Step-dad (or in fact all of us) have contracted the German Measles too.  None of us have had it, and none of us particularly want it either.  Thankfully Matt had it when he was young, it's just the rest of us.  Just have to hope that if I do get it I don't turn out to be pregnant as well.  We shall see! 

Time for me to be off.  Got the boy watching Cars, Matt's out cutting the grass, I'm deciding whether to go out and enjoy some sun or stay here and watch Cars with Brandon for the umpteenth time this week.  

T.T.F.N. x

Off on a jaunt...

Apologies one and all for the recent lack of posting...I would say it's because I've been really busy but, in all honesty, I can't really remember anything I've done recently - wow, what an exciting life I must lead?! 

Poorly Baby, having a snooze on Mummy's shoulder

Well, it is half term, which means a whole 2 weeks with Brandon at home.  It really isn't as headache inducing as I thought, however, that might be due to the fact that he has been a poorly lil chicken these past 2 days.  After 2 trips to the doctors over the past 2 days, it has been decided that he has an Upper Respiratory Tract Infection and Eye Infection (yuck!!). He has a cocktail of medicines, eye drops and nasal drops to keep being plied with.  

I had nightmares that this was going to end up being something serious, as is every Mother's nightmare, but also because Matt and I have some very rare time off booked for tomorrow.  

L-R: Me, Erik Chandler, Me, Jaret Reddick

We are off on a jaunt to Brighton for the day (after dropping Brandon off at Matt's mum's that is).  

We are going to go and see Jaret Reddick and Erik Chandler from the American Pop/Punk Group, Bowling For Soup. They are doing an acoustic tour and, after seeing them live last year, it fueled my love for them all the more, so Matt and I were gutted when we couldn't afford tickets to go. However, somewhere along the line, Matt's luck changed and he won 2 tickets to any show on the tour!! RESULT!!! 

We will be driving back tomorrow night, but Brandon is staying at Matt's mum's. We can't wait, looking forward to getting up when we're ready (rather than being woken up), taking some time for us and then heading over for dinner and collecting the boy.  

We're hoping that, after the wedding n all, we will be able to afford tickets to their October Tour, when the whole band will be together doing what they do best =) If you do one thing this year, try and get to see Bowling For Soup play live - they really are awesome to watch.  Failing that, if you can't get to a show (or afford it), go to YouTube and watch some of their live videos. 

Sorry things aren't more exciting at this end, I'm quite sure when something exciting does happen you will be some of the first to know about it. 

Much love to you and yours. 


T.T.F.N. x

Another Day Done & Dusted

Mother's Day done and dusted.  Watched my DVD with the lil man twice.  The second time was necessary to take his mind off of his freshly grazed knees =( Poor lil thing went heels over head in the garden. 

I seem to have another busy week ahead: 

- Monday: Drop Brandon to Nursery, fly back to the college for a hair styling assessment I've been asked to do, get home for my Sister who is coming up to visit, go and get lil man from nursery, pick up some dog food n stuff
-Tuesday: Sister still here, hair cut for an assessment at the salon and then see what things we can do to keep Brandon entertained 
 -Wednesday: Brandon is at nursery again, may or may not be over to Margo after, need to confirm with her 
-Thursday: Down to my parents 

At the moment, I think that is about all. It doesn't sound a lot when I write it down, but it will be enough to keep me busy when it actually arrives.  Somewhere in that lot I have to get more work done on my back tattoo so that it actually looks finished for the wedding.  

My mind is actually fuzzing over at the moment so I think I am going to go and find some sheep and bees.  


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T.T.F.N. x

Life Is A Rollercoaster (and I wanna get off!!!!)

I know that's not how Ronan Keating's lyrics go, but I don't wanna ride it. 

It's not that there are too many ups and downs, twists and turns for my liking - although if the ride was slightly smoother I wouldn't complain.  It is the sheer unadulterated, uncontrollable, bat out of hell speed that it seems to be going out that freaks me out ever so slightly.  

This minor freak out may be being caused by the fact that, in just a few weeks, I am turning 30.  Or shortly before that my little boy turns 4.  Or that my little boy is starting school this September.  Or all 3.  Can anyone else hear the deafening screaming that has got louder and louder or is it really just in my head?? 

I know time moves on, but it was only a few weeks ago that I was 25 and holding my newborn baby.  Now I'm nearly 30 and he's nearly 4!  I am almost certain that one of these days I am going to go to sleep, wake up and he will be 18! (I'm not even thinking about how old I'm going to be on that day! 

As for this starting school malarkey, well that hit me like a ton of bricks in January and went a little like this: 
Mum: "have you looked at any schools yet?"
Me: *Blank look* 
Mum: "Schools? For Brandon?"
Me: "No, why?" 
Mum: "I thought the submission deadline was coming up?"
Me: "Yeah, and?" 
Mum: "And hadn't you better look at some so you know what ones you might want him to go to?"
Me: "Not like there's a rush, we might not even be on the Island next year" 
Mum: "What's next year got to do with it? It's for this September" 

The conversation went on and it was with a deafening thud I realized that my baby boy is not such a baby anymore and my mum was in fact right: Brandon is starting School this September, not next as I foolishly thought.  

It was then that I realized I had approximately a week to view schools and get my choices submitted! Thankfully the schools were accommodating and fitted me in for visits and, I am pleased to say, Brandon has been accepted into his number 1 choice. 

I have had people saying to me that now would be the best time to get pregnant because then I'll have the baby and Brandon will be at School however, I have quite a busy year as it is, so maybe the bump will have to wait - although my dream mind is almost putting me off of the idea: 
Last night's dream: Me pregnant with what was thought to be quads, but turned out to be 5!  I woke up this morning in a cold sweat. 

So today is Mother's Day here in the UK and so I extend a heartfelt Happy Mother's Day to all Mothers. Also to all who have lost their Mum and can't say "I Love You Mum" and to all who have lost a child and can't hear them say "I Love You Mum". Don't take your mum's for granted, all too soon the precious time will be gone and you will wish that you had just 5 more minutes, just enough time to give them a hug, tell them you love them and say thank you for everything they ever did for you. 

I'm one of the lucky ones, I still have my mum and my Child.  My Child told me loves me and we spent the morning watching my Mother's Day Present, Green Day's Awesome As F*ck =) Thank you little man.  

That is all from the mind of this slightly emotional, but loved Mummy. 

T.T.F.N. x

Apologies...

So, apologies for lack of service yesterday but it ended up being a much more busy day than I first anticipated.  

The hair is now vibrant and beautiful once more, which always makes me a happier Mummy.  If you couple that with the glorious weather that we have today, I am a very happy and content Mummy.  My 2 boys are doing the gardening while The Doggles and I bask in the April Sunshine.  

Perfect.  

Until later my lil sun bunnies, T.T.F.N. x

Suki enjoying the sun

Sox, the lil sun bunny

Sammy taking it easy

Special Man in My Life

Special Man in My Life....

Us two being together is a priceless dream come true,
I made so many wishes for a special man like you.
And now you've come into my life and stolen my heart away,
Everything is perfect and I wouldn't change a day.

I feel like I've been blessed with such a very special thing,
I'll never take for granted all the happiness you bring.
I'm lucky to have found someone so easy to adore,
You'll always be the special man that I was waiting for.


I love you Matt. xx

Perfection ♥

To The Love of My Life...

To the Love of My Life,
How many ways can I say I love you and still make you smile?

I'll cross my fingers that whether or not my words measure up,
you'll at least know that you and you alone hold the key to my heart.

I love you for your thoughtfulness and tenderness,
For always being so good to me,
For your easy attitude,
Your faithfulness and loyalty,
And your commitment to us.
I love you because you let me be who I am,
Because you want the best for me,
And because you love me,too.

I want to be the happy in your birthday,
The merry in your Christmas,
The light in your darkness.
I want to be everything to you that you are to me.

Does this sound like I love you,
That I'm smitten to the core,
And that no one could ever take your place?

I just know this...
As long as my heart beats,
I will love you - my partner,
My funny valentine,
The love of my life,
And my best friend.

No matter what happens,
I'll be fine just as long as you are my roommate in this place called life. 

Me with the Mr. ♥

♥Never Stop Falling In Love♥

Falling into that beautiful thing called Love

ATTRACTION, FLIRTATION, EUPHORIA, DOUBT, THE TRUTH
(I don't know why I want you, but I really do)
Here it is. That inexplicable, elemental tug. That surprising sudden feeling you've been waiting for. This is yesyesyes. This is where you find something or someone, and just fall for them, illogically, irresistibly. And find yourself thinking of nothing else
Because it's attraction, and the dream of love to follow, that keeps the imagination alive. It's attraction that makes like sparkle and pop and fizz.

ATTRACTION, FLIRTATION, EUPHORIA, DOUBT, THE TRUTH
(The longer the better)
...And so you dance around it. You draw it out. You tease towards love.
This is pure physical poetry. It's the thrill of communicating by give and take, the simple charm of tugging at another heart and waiting (hoping) for a response.
It's the improbably joyous creation of going absolutely nowhere for a long, long time...all in the anticipation that you're actually on your way (slowly, tiptoe-ingly) to somewhere truly marvelous...

ATTRACTION, FLIRTATION,EUPHORIA,DOUBT, THE TRUTH
(Or: You love me too!)
...You feel fizzy. You feel funny. You don't want to stop and breathe. You don't want to think. You just want to hold onto this unbelievable rush.
You tell yourself, I could learn to live with this feeling.
You tell yourself, this love, I won't question.
This love, I will simply enjoy.
Because this love is, quite possibly, the one...

ATTRACTION, FLIRTATION, EUPHORIA, DOUBT, THE TRUTH
(Also known as: Hang on a minute...)
But wait. Now come those pesky, inevitable things; the questions. You wonder, Could this really be as good as it seems? You ask, Is this love, or just foolishness?
Is this really it?
Maybe you're being too hopeful. Naive, even.
Maybe you just want to believe it so much...And yet. And still. You can't shake that inexplicable tug.
And you kind of don't want to...

ATTRACTION, FLIRTATION, EUPHORIA, DOUBT, THE TRUTH
(Also known as the big whooperdoodle, or, the most important part of this whole sloppy, thrilling, infuriating, marvelous experience)
So this is love. As wondrous and scary and fabulous as it can be. It may have started with mere attraction, but where it's ended up is somewhere deeper and truer and endlessly more fulfilling.
And despite yourself, you will have learned a little something along the way.
That euphoria doesn't have to be fleeting.
That love can survive doubt.
That a joyful instinct should never be repressed.
And so you throw yourself into love.Heartfirst.

♥Never stop falling in LOVE♥

My beautiful husband to be and I ♥